I’ve been trying to keep mum since January about my whole family situation, out of respect to the parties involved and all.. Plus.. A home decor blog…? Emotions..? Sometimes there’s a fine line and it’s confusing and risky to share too much. But, I also like to connect with y’all, and I know I’m not the only one who has walked this road, and I’m not the only one who will.. So.. here goes.
Tomorrow is *huge* for my family. Huge.
After thirteen long, sometimes amazing years.. sometimes awful years.. I’m going to walk into a court room with the man who used to be my best friend and have the state of Michigan tell us we aren’t married anymore.
It’s a really weird feeling. Today it was almost like I could hear the clock ticking.. The day dragged while I tried to keep myself busy so I wouldn’t dwell on it, and at the same time I blinked and it was gone. The last day as Mrs. Czuk gone. So bizarre right? Wanting something to get here and get over with, and biting my nails because.. Wait? Didn’t this just happen? Weren’t we just laughing about how crazy our kids were and planning the house we wanted to build? We didn’t even finish the t.v shows we had DVR’d…. What the crap? This is a joke right? A dream? He was JUST HERE?
I recently read this article on Momastery, and it really hit home. I struggle so much with failure. I can’t stand it, I’m absolutely a sore loser, I get angry when I can’t do something I feel should be easy for me to do. Like, I don’t know.. Marriage? ha. But I’m trying every day to see it a little differently.
Is it really a failure to stand up for yourself? Is it really a failure to try like HELL to fight for something, and then decide that you yourself is worth fighting for more? That proving to your girls that love is a powerful, powerful thing, and shouldn’t hurt, shouldn’t be something you have to ASK for?
Sometimes it’s just taking that step. Getting up off the bathroom floor and standing up. Saying, today I wont cry. Today I’ll fight for me. Today I’ll smile. Today I’ll show *every* person in my life how much they mean to me. That they matter. That life is still beautiful, just different now.
Different is okay. Scary, but okay.
It’s not a failure when you make it out alive… When you survive the storm…
“It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.”
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Let’s NOT acknowledge the fact this is day 15.. and the calender says otherwise. Lets just, not go there.
So I wanted a place in the basement to fold laundry and store crap.. Stuff. You know– like linens and all my freakin’ reusable bags that I have.. MILLIONS of. Wrapping paper, gift items.. Things of that nature.
I had this dresser that we used in the nursery when Chloe was this big–or I should say this small, tear. It was nice for storage and all but we have the built in dresser (That Jared uses for work clothes which is why she used the dresser) and since it’s a playroom now there’s really no need for the dresser, built in or otherwise.
SO, it’s sat in our garage for three years just waiting for me to make it pretty again.. and I figured.. while I’m on my mustard kick… ahem.. why not? So I set up a little paint station down stairs.. although I did forget to cover up the floor, that would be a whoopsie.. and good thing we have to paint the floor anyways. Details people..
But it kind of makes me mad because I can NOT get a good picture of the color, it’s a true mustard.
So beautiful in person and since I used my Home Right Finish Max sprayer the coverage is AMAZING. (By the way, the peeps at Home Right wanted me to let you know that the Finish Max is BACK IN STOCK! Hurry! Run run run! I can’t tell you how much I love this tool. I’ve already used it on SO MANY projects in the month or so that I’ve had it. I LOVE IT.)
I didn’t tape off the drawers, though I could have if I wanted to stop any over-spray but I just don’t have it in me to worry about that. I do think the drawers would look cute painted a nice gray so there’s that pop of neutral when you open them. Maybe someday. :)
We still have so much to do downstairs– next up is the floor, which I’m going to try and tackle tomorrow. The trim on the wall, the ceiling which is going to be the death of me.. ahem. The other walls downstairs need to be attended to and a few more storage issues.. but I mean.. really that’s nothing ;) HA!
So far I like the lamp down here, I’m not loving the black shade but I’m trying to figure out something else that I love. I also might move down my good luck charlie painting since it’s currently in the stairway which I love– colors, kids, it kind of just goes together.. But I’d like to see it more. And, of course the upstairs is always such a mess I try not to go into their rooms ;) Kidding.. maybe.
Hola Friends! I wanted to pop in on this chilly Sunday because I’ve been pinning Halloween things like a maniac and even though I’m trying not to decorate anymore for the Holiday.. I thought maybe some of you might still be putting some fun things out and like the inspiration! Enjoy!
How stinking simple is this? SO STINKING SIMPLE THAT’S HOW MUCH. I don’t have a source since the pin lead to google, but.. if you know who it belongs to.. let a girl know and I’ll credit!
Seriously I love J-A-G’s decorating style. Always simple and I dig the black and white as you know..
Seriously this house makes me swooooon. She’s got some more good Halloween goodies in her post as well!
Love this Halloween House Tour
Simple! My kind of decorating.
A little Outdoor decorating perhaps?
Yes! For those lil’ ones who don’t dig the scary.
Lets have a little impromptu linky party shall we? Have any Halloween Posts you’d like to share? Link up!
Need a super easy project, that you can do while watching a movie on a Friday night perhaps? Yes! Lets.
You’ll need– some terra cotta pots, small succulents from Home Depot, Lowes.. the farmers market if they sell them there! And some pretty colors that make you happy, and a pot of stain.
These were all the colors that I used for my Good Luck Charlie painting and I really love them. They’re.. warm and remind me of gems and they just make me happy. Fall is the season to be happy isn’t it? With some pumpkin spice cookies.. and halloween movies on.. Ohh I love it.
Back to the painting. Get some cheap foam brushes and start painting these suckers. They soak up the paint really fast so while you’re painting one, let one dry.. move on.. I did two coats on each and then a coat of stain that I immediately wiped off. I didn’t want them to have too much color on them, just enough to tone down the brightness and make them a little.. dirty.
I didn’t think you would want pictures of me painting, mostly because… it’s kind of self explanatory and this post is basically just to get you inspired to do a quick project that’s good for your health (Plants are AWESOME to have inside. Is that the same for succulents? I assume so? Is that a dumb question.. Perhaps) I keep them in the living room and it’s nice because they hardly ever need water, so even though they aren’t on plates to catch the water and dirt– I can just take them to the sink every few days… (weeks) and water them by the sink, let it drain and put them back.
That’s what I love about these plants, so little maintenance and so far, I can move them around and they like whatever light I put them in. The aloe plant has actually grown quite a bit and the other one with the flower is about to bloom.. I’m waiting on pins and needles to see what it looks like!
Yeah.. I don’t get out much.
(This goes without saying, my living room is NOT staged. Crap is everywhere.. We built that white table and haven’t talked about it.. The brown one is filling in until the other white one is done and.. our floors are hit. HIT I tell you! But.. It was nice and bright and said “Take my picture..” So I listened.)
:) Happy Friday!
Sticking with the wreath theme…. Enjoy!
Since I got lucky and had some new goodies to try out thanks to Home Seasons I thought I’d put them to good use and actually craft something. *Gasp* I know. My glue gun and I have been separated for far too long.
This particular project is super easy, you just need a wreath form (Mine was a leftover from a 4th of July project I never finished)
Spider webs (Fake ones.. Please..har har har)
White fabric (Unless you have a white wreath)
Plastic spiders..different sizes if you want to be fancy.
I’ll let the pictures speak for themselves.
This is when Jared said I should just stop and make it a mummy with googly eyes. Possibilities people! They’re all around you!
Boom. Mama and her babies. Creepy..Gross. And, as being as terrified as I am of spiders I’m a little surprised I pulled this off and am allowing it to grace our front door.
It helps that some are sparkly.
There you have it. Cute wreath in under 5 minutes. Get your spook on people! It’s time!
Okay y’all. I need to write this down so I can remember how I feel *right now*
Well, it happened last night but I’m still feeling quite fuzzy about it.
I’m a yeller, I am. I yell way too much and I’m too loud and sometimes I think to myself.. Damn, if someone were talking to me like that I’d feel like crap. So what the heck am I doing freaking out on my kids for doing things that kids do? I mean, sometimes I’m so hard on them I feel like I’m constantly asking them to forgive me, because I feel bad after saying something too harsh or loud. I hate when people get loud so why should I do it. Yuck. But trying to raise polite, smart, loving, respectful human beings is HARD people! Chloe– sweet little Chloe, she can be so difficult to parent. She likes things her way, and they have to be just right. Do not try and make her wear pants.. And don’t get me started if her socks are the slightest bit crooked. Getting ready for school takes an extra 30 minutes because it’s TOUGH. If she doesn’t want to do something.. she REALLY doesn’t want to do it. She’s stubborn as hell and if you put her in time out? Well good luck, because she’ll sit there all day and all night until you give up.
She can be so so sweet.. but she can be.. ohh she can be so many things.
Then, after an especially hard day. And, Chloe colored with marker on the chair.. again. After I told her to use her tray.. again. She gave me this:
In case you can’t read 5 year old talk– it says: I luv u I heart u I super luv u. Lily! Chloe! I heart you! I love so much! I really luv u! I sure luv you! I heart u! Even dad.
1.) She was making this when she colored on the chair.
2.) It’s washable. Seriously, and it’s a chair. Shut up Rachelle.
She still loves me. A lot. Even when I’m nagging asking her to pick up her backpack for the 30th time.. Basically God shook me and said, seriously. Calm down. It’s okay. They’re kids. It just pulled at some serious heart strings– I’m really lucky. Sometimes I forget that. And, someday (hopefully sooner rather than later) She’ll grow out of it, and we’ll laugh and say remember when she’d lay on the floor and scream and cry until she got her way.. how funny. ;)
It helps that they’re really really cute.
So we had a very u-g-l-y fan in the playroom. White, one light, very standard and blah.
I wanted something with a little more pizazz and searched lots of tutorials online but they ALL needed a fan with two lights so you could screw a rod/finale into the fan to attach your shade too. Young house love did it a few times. Did you hop over and see what I mean? Yeah, mine couldn’t uh..do that. So I used my thinker.. and thunk some more.
Thanks to my Secret Santa at work this year I had a handy dandy little tool bag that had some wire in it. I wrapped it around the prongs? arms? metal part.. yes.. the metal part of the shade, like so.
Then made sure it was all semi-even and just stuck it right on the screws that had formally held the old globe in place.
See how freakin’ easy that was? I KNOW. Imagine all the awesome shades you can put up now! Awesome. It’s not super pretty from below, but no one will be looking right up at it, since the kiddy table is below.
I saw this wreath on Pinterest a while back.. and it’s GORGEOUS NO? I love it. It’s beautiful. So naturally I had to copy it. That’s a form of flattery right? I wanted to spend as little though that I had to so that meant using ribbon I had from my cousins wedding.. and a straw wreath.. boo but I was able to snatch up a broach that my Mom gave me from some of my grandmas things. I’m pretty sure she’s okay with me using it and wont haunt me. But the verdicts still out on that.
I did buy the feather though. 1.99 maybe? USE THOSE COUPONS girls!
I was a little bumped the ribbon was transparent so I’m not really calling this project a win yet. Because I’m not 100% happy. Buttttttttt It is kind of pretty. And I like the colors, it’s very warm, fall, ready for thanksgiving type. So, clearly I’m conflicted. I might rip it up and put some ribbon on that I like. I might not. Time will tell!
You know the drill. Glue the ribbon at the end, wrap wrap and wrap and glue along the way. I also pinned it a few times in the back to hold it while the glue dried, but really hot glue dries fairly fast so I might not have needed to do that.
Once the gold was on I just glued the feather on, and added some glitter to the broach since the colors weren’t working for me.
And just stuck the pin in there. I wanted to be able to take it out when I’m ready (See.. Can’t commit.) So pinning it was the simplest way for me to do that.
Boom Done. You just spent 10 minutes making a wreath and you’re done already! Satisfaction at it’s finest. I’ll use the rest of my crafting time to wipe off my dusty door.. whoa now. Sorry about that! ha ha Even photoshop can’t fix that mess. Let’s just close up so we can’t see it…
Much better.. ;)
Do you follow me on Instagram? (I swear it’s not fishing for followers.. ) I posted this picture the other day and it made me laugh.
CLEARLY since I’m knocking my to-do list out of the park lately and getting more and more things done around the house that I want, I need to be more careful when I say we need something.. rather than want. For example, this cookbook shelf we needed. Is it really a need…when you have 4 cookbooks? ha ha. Maybe not, but I’ve had family members and friends offer them up to me since then. I guess they don’t want to see Jared put the kaboosh on my project series and doing things that are unnecessary to the house ha ha
Anyway– I wanted a place to put my cookbooks (lol…) and we could always use more shelving. Am I convincing you yet? Let me show you how to make the EASIEST shelf ever. Because you know I like things quick, and easy.
Here’s a before picture– since I missed out on that. We have very standard cabinets. Unfinished from Home Depot– painted Popcorn white. Plain Jane– and a planked backsplash. Simple and clean.
It’s not my dream kitchen but it’s a HECK OF A LOT BETTER (Yes I’m yelling) than it was before–Small picture. Only one I have from when we first moved in. So cute. I wanted that Terra-cotta paint color like nobody’s business. Funny how things change.
Back on track– I didn’t take a picture of putting on the lattice strips for a few reasons. One– because I was gluing.. drilling and holding them up while taking pictures alone. This means, I said screw it and just did it without the pictures. Measure and level.
Now, this is where your husband will say “I told you to pre-drill the holes.” And you’ll say “I told you to quit your job and stay at home with me and help me with these things.” He’ll roll his eyes and you’ll move on. Basically. Pre- drill your holes, playas. It’s got some glue on it too, I’m honestly not worried about it but I sure don’t want Mike Holmes coming and critiquing me either.
Lets have a closer look…
Okay so you pre drill, and make sure EVERYTHING IS LEVEL. you don’t want a crooked shelf, I mean c’mon. So the shelf sits on top but what about those (Cracked) strips of wood!? I know. Lets cover those up. I grabbed a wider strip and nailed that sucker right onto the shelf. Similar to making a box– but after one wall of the box you get tired and quit. ;)
I could tell you I painted all that underneath so it would be pretty and glorious and magazine ready but I’d be lying. Aint nobody got time for that.
I do however, plan on caulking it. But I wasn’t making an extra trip just to buy some new caulk. Truth.
I did have time to style it though, so Jared didn’t have to stare at an empty shelf for too long. I like keeping the silverware up there actually, it keeps little fingers from grabbing an extra fork they don’t need.
Pretty milk glass.. pretty leaves from outside.
There she be people! And I know you’re all thinking.. gosh.. she has such a clean kitchen. She’s like super mom. Lets zoom out….
Bahh ha ha ha. Illusions people! Happy Tuesday! Happy shelf making & faking clean houses.
Okay I did sprinkle a little more Halloween around the house, but it did NOT involve lugging up those stupid heavy boxes upstairs so I’m still happy with my “NO MORE” stance on decorating.
Today the windows were open, we had a pumpkin candle burning and I wanted to get a lil’ artsy. Soo.. Instead of trying to find a cute quote like last years Halloween Chalkboard, I just drew my second favorite Halloween characters! (First being, the witches from Hocus Pocus of course!)
The best thing about chalk is that it’s so forgiving! You just shhmear it around if you want to add some shading, soften it up, or just go ahead and erase it if you hate it. (Case in point– I asked on Instagram if y’all thought I should add Zero, the dog. The verdict was no. So he was erased and I did the graveyard scene that is so well known from the movie.)
Now, lets get this straight- I do NOT call myself a chalk pro, and I know for a fact the shading isn’t technically correct because it’s coming from all different directions, but the more I practice.. the better I get!
I wish I could give an actual tutorial for this but that’s kind of hard. How about just some inspiration for you and another project knocked off my list. Because, anything that takes me 2 hours really is a project in my book! ha ha Happy Halloween!
I’m going to be posting a few times today to play catch up– so be on the look out for day 9 & 10 too!
They were pretty standard, black / white with orange or green. I did the same thing this year but really it’s a totally different look since I threw EVERYTHING I could up there and I love the non-symmetrical look of it with the crazy bats flying out from behind the tv. Obviously I’m not cleaning enough back there ;)
Everything that I used, I already had so this cost $ no money $ which is what my husband likes to hear. But, you could easily recreate it with some dollar store skulls, some glittered out like martha stewart on crack and some printables from the internet.
(Look a bat fell, and I didn’t even fix it. Embrace the imperfections people! ha ha Or.. I got lazy)
If you can’t find black books (I only had two.. Twilight for the win) Just turn them around and let the pages do the talking. (ha..get it? Pages.. Words..yeah..) The bats would have been way easier if I had a silhouette but since I choose to spend my money elsewhere like lamps and pillows and taco bell, I don’t have one. But I do have two little girls who need to practice their cutting skills! Parenting at it’s finest. Here babes, cut out 100 bats, ready set go.
The imperfections don’t even phase me anymore, but you knew that.
There you go! This is the extent of our Halloween this year, I’ve been trying to organize and purge our house from things we really *don’t* need and I refuse to open any more boxes.